[Verse 1: VAS LEON]
I’m home alone, I’m laying in the dark
Curtains drawn but midday where I are
I stay here I got only pain in my heart
Its got me feeling like I was only made to be scarred
Every single day its even harder than the last
Questions bout my day? nada they don’t ask
Are you okay, nada no-one asks
Even if I went outside can’t hide the pain through my mask ‘cause
Last year, covid made it worse
One month about 7 people in a herse
Dreams of my life got buried in the dirt
And I don’t ever wanna ever love again because of her
Love again because of life, huh, forget a wife
I don’t go to the kitchen case Im clever with the *****
I used to have a better state of mind
Only one being I love, the rest I don’t, you know why? ‘cause I got


[Chorus: VAS LEON]
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, yeah, (Heart)
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, yeah
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, yeah
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, I got
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, yeah, (Heart)
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, yeah
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, yeah
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, I got


[Verse 2: VAS LEON]
Depression and obsession doesn’t
Mix well, Do I think I can be fixed well
Nah, I ain't even open to the thought of it
Being let down nah I can’t take anymore of it
And if I go, ain’t nobody missing me
Told you all on spoke all I wanted was consistency
All they ever wanted was to hinder me its killing me, and
I would have done anything for them like give kidney
Im tryna figure out how to fight this
Im tryna figure out why Im like this
Trauma, Been through a lot of shxt
Never thought that I would be this way all because of it
Thought it made me stronger but nah I wasn’t right
Thats why they call it left because they are definitely out of sight
I used to have a better state of mind
Only one being I love, the rest I don’t, you know why? ‘cause I got


[Chorus: VAS LEON]
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, yeah, (Heart)
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, yeah
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, yeah
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, I got
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, yeah, (Heart)
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, yeah
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, yeah
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, I got,Pain in my heart, hate in my heart
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, I got
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, yeah
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, yeah
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, yeah
Pain in my heart, hate in my heart, I got